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Boundaries are Tough
categories: Blogging, Boundaries
Thankfulness
categories: QUIET TIME, Thankfulness
I have been weary lately. I have begun to feel the hardship of the circumstances around me, yet I know deep in my heart that there is One in me that will not fail me. Even knowing this I begin to lose the stillness that my soul so thirsts for and I start to see things from a different perspective. I lose the sense of thankfulness that was so prevalent in my heart, soul and mind as I begin to whine about my circumstances. I lose touch with what is truly important, not only for my own life but those around me. I begin to think that I have lost the battle and I start floundering as a fish does when out of water. I lose the precious sense of peace that it was once there and I am left wondering how it has been possible that I have lost what was the cornerstone of my life.
I stop, I let things go, I release whatever is not working in my life to God and allow Him to take control. Slowly I begin to feel a sense of inner peace and I suddenly have more time to dedicate to the things that are genuinely important in this life. I get back into my quiet time, I am in prayer with the Almighty One and instantly I begin to see Him in my life again. It was never He who left me; it was me that left Him. I begin to realize how no matter what the circumstances are around my life, He has so strategically planned and designed them all. Nothing is by coincidence. Everything is in place to prune me, to eliminate the things that no longer are a source of true life and will hinder me from intimately knowing His love. I begin to see prayers being answered again, I see how people in my life are supposed to be there and I realize without any doubt that each one is placed here for a purpose. Though I am not God and cannot be one-hundred percent certain of the path I am on, I have great confidence and hope that He is leading me because of seeing His promises and faithfulness come alive in my life and the lives of those I love. I can see my life is different and it is better than it has ever been.
I begin to pray in the back of my mind softly, like a whisper that is ever-present. It is the Spirit of God that lives in me and gives me life. I am so thankful for each of the circumstances. Though I have walked this earth for more than 50 years, it took me half a century to realize that God loves me infinitely, He has plans for my life and no matter what tries to thwart His plan, He will not allow it. He will consistently bring me back to where He wants me to be! Yes, it is my choice to surrender all I have and am to Jesus Christ, the Savior and Redeemer of my life, but if I do not choose Him, over time He will allow things in my life to cause me to turn to Him. This is clear in the way He vengefully pursued me. I lost everything that was important to me and I was left with nothing but God to turn to for comfort and rescue. He brought people into my life each step of the journey before and after He revealed Himself to me. He opens doors and closes doors along the way for me to realize that He is in control of all things. Why shouldn’t He be? He created them all and also each of us.
My prayer today is one of immense gratitude and thankfulness that each and every circumstance in my life has been and is an opportunity for me to love another. In professing to be so in love with Jesus Christ, I too have a responsibility to Him out of that deep love to love others in the same way I am loved by Him. He is a merciful, forgiving, loving and just God and He wants nothing more than for us to love Him and one another the same.
Eyes on Jesus
“Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus, but when he saw the wind, he was afraid and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and helped him”. (Matthew 14:28-30 NIV)
Do you think you hear the voice of God inviting you to step out of the boat, to experience new things, to walk where you have never walked before? Do you listen to his voice and act with reckless abandon, stepping out in complete faith in Jesus, confident that he is with you?
Too many times we get caught like a deer in headlights once we step out in faith and see things begin to be in motion. We are creative, the right circumstances and people are brought into our lives, we believe nothing can stop us and then without warning, we allow ourselves to take a deeper look at what is happening, we see the difficulties which exist, and begin to wonder how we will overcome the obstacles. In losing sight of the One who is leading us, we find ourselves starting to doubt. We wonder if we really heard the voice, we begin to lose our creativity and we lose connection with the people who were brought into our circle.
Like Peter, we sometimes begin to sink, but that does not mean our faith has to falter. We read in Matthew 14:31b, that when Peter began to sink, he cried out to the Lord and the “Lord reached out his hand and caught him” answering him, “You of little faith,” he said “why did you doubt?” If we will remember to keep our eyes and mind focused on the faithfulness of our Lord, and continue to move through what He has so graciously bestowed upon us, it is completely possible we could find ourselves walking through doors we never dreamed, living a life we never thought possible!
Whenever you are feeling apprehensive and overwhelmed with the troubles, difficulties and obstacles surrounding your circumstances, and you begin to doubt Christ, remember He is the only One you can turn to for help! He has given us his promises and he has been faithful to them since the beginning of all time!
What are you doing to keep your faith strong? Do you spend time reading God’s word daily to help keep you from faltering? Are you asking God to strengthen and increase your faith? Spending time doing these will help us keep our focus on Him alone and allow what we perceive to be impossible become possible!
Scriptures to read: Matthew 6:30-32; Matthew 8:26; Psalm 89:9; Psalm 107:29
Discipline
It is so hard with all the responsibilities that we have in our daily lives, especially if we are single mothers, to take time to be still. But if we begin by setting aside 5 minutes daily as a part our routine, to read one verse of Scripture and then close our eyes and listen to our innermost being, we would find that would crave that 5 minutes, because of the benefits it provides. It sets the precedent for our day, intentionally develops a closer relationship with God, and sets the stage for the lives around us. It is much like diet; we discipline ourselves because we know it is good for us, we eat select foods for proper nourishment and we exclude certain foods from our diet because we know they are empty of anything necessary for our healthy development. If we can discipline ourselves in this, it would seem that it would be easy to discipline ourselves in taking 5 minutes to listen to our Creator, and to explore and learn more about who this Being is that loves us so much. But it isn’t easy, and like many things we strive for, we have to demand it of ourselves before we realize the benefit. It is then through the unfolding of your days that you will see the ultimate benefit of your self-discipline. It will be heard through a child’s profession that Christ is her Savior, or through a college student that says, I know God is in control, or maybe it will just be a peace inside of you that you cannot explain. However it is shown to you, you will know and you will desire more and more of it!
Damaged Emotions and Healing
categories: Depression, truth
Depression is caused from infirmities and the concealing of ones sins. Sin is basically defined as something that hurts someone. Whether it is yourself or someone else that is being hurt, it causes a separation in your heart with God. It doesn’t mean God is not with you, it means you have possibly done something that separated you or there is a crippling of the mind due to damaged emotions that others have inflicted upon you. A direct indication of our emotions being damaged is in the presence of depression. Depression is defined as:
According to Dictionary.com it is a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. A further description from a God perspective defines it as infirmities.
“Infirmities:
- The Old Testament refers to infirmities as a blemish, a physical spot.
- The New Testament refers to it as a negative from of sthenos which means strength.
If you add an “a” in front of the word in greek that negates it.
A theist is someone who believes in God and an atheist is someone who does not believe in God, he is lacking in belief. In the same way, by adding an a to the word sthenos and resulting in asthenos, we see this is defined as one who is lacking in strength, an infirmity, a crippling.
The word is hardly ever used in a purely physical sense in the New Testament. Rather, it refers to mental, moral and emotional weaknesses, to lack of strength. Infirmities in themselves are not sins, but they do undermine our resistance to temptation. In the NT infirmities are qualities in human nature which may predispose or incline us to sin, sometimes without any conscious choice on our part.” – Healing for Damaged Emotions-© 2004, David Seamands, page 38
“This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: “He took up our infirmities
and carried our diseases.” Matthew 8:17 (NIV)
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.” Romans 8:26-27 (NIV)
“During the days of Jesus’ life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered.” Hebrews 5:7-8 (NIV)
We have a tendency to think there is something wrong with us because we feel depressed. Jesus taught us that God is with us always. Even in our sufferings. Think about all that Jesus life involved while he was here on earth and how he went to the Father boldly praying for His strength and rescue. We are instructed in the word of God to come to Him boldly. This does not mean that we have to come to him in shame and defeat; we come to Him boldly and ask for Him to heal us from our infirmities! To reach down within the darkest and most hidden places of our hearts and gently rub the healing salve on our wounded hearts and crippled minds so we can begin to see the truth, and as His light shines into the darkness, be healed and move beyond them into greater purpose.
In addition to believing and asking God to help up, we can create disciplines in our lives which will work hand in hand with God to bring us along in our healing.
- Look in the mirror and face your problem head on.
- Take responsibility for the matter.
- Honestly assess whether you want to heal “
“When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, ‘Do you want to get well?”‘ John 5:6 (NIV
- Forgive others – “But Joseph said to them, ‘Don’t be afraid. Am I in the place of God? You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many.'” Genesis 50:19-20
- Forgive yourself
- Ask the Holy Spirit to lead you in the healing for your specific issues and ask how to pray for your healing. “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” Romans 8:26 (NIV)
- Ask others to pray with you.
When we seek God’s and others forgiveness, as a result of guilt and shame in our lives, we will begin to be lifted out of our depression.
Look at David and his sin with Bathsheba. It was not until he confessed his sins of adultery with her that he began to heal.
“When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer.” Psalms 32:3-4 (NIV)
- Put your hope and trust in God when you are downcast.
“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will praise him, my savior and my God.” Psalms 42:5-6 (NIV)
We may experience some tough situations, but we can avoid long-term deeper depression.
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down but not destroyed.” 2 Corinthians 2:8-9 (NIV)
“We do not lose heart. Thought outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an internal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not in what is seen, but on what is unseen, For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (NIV)
When times are very difficult for me, I have learned to think back upon the times of how the apostle Paul was severely persecuted and how he overcame through the sustaining of His grace with an understanding of his deep need for dependency upon God in every aspect of his life.
“Are they servants of Christ? (I am out of my mind to talk like this.) I am more. I have worked much harder, been in prison more frequently, been flogged more severely, and been exposed to death again and again. Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was stoned, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my own countrymen, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false brothers. I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked. Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches.” 2 Corinthians 11:23-28 (NIV)
God’s grace is unlimited and He is standing there waiting for us to depend on him. His promises are that when we call upon his name, he will be there and he will answer our prayers. Believing God will allow you to have eyes to see things you have never seen before. It will open your heart, eyes, and ears to opportunities which have been there all along, but because of blindness have been unseen! God demonstrates for us, through the life of Jesus Christ, to keep our focus on Him. When we do, we will see Him only, lose the consuming fire of our circumstances and have a freedom to live without depression that can be caused either by circumstances or separateness by sin.
“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” Psalms 42:5a (NIV)