No Shoes

Two Different Shoes_No shoes_102513She walked in about ten minutes late so concerned about her tardiness. “I don’t even think I can tell you what happened to me.” She began trying to tell me why she was late before I could say anything. “I really think I am just getting dumb,” and she went on “I can’t remember anything anymore.”

I was certain it had to do with her being inundated with information. I knew she was going through a difficult time.  “I’m late. I walked in early and looked down at my feet, and I was barefoot.” Smiling and almost laughing as I envisioned the scene, I explained, “It really isn’t that unusual. I’ve worn two different colored shoes to the office before. I’ve known many other women who have done the same thing.”

Me sharing my personal experience seemed to put her at ease a little and when I looked down at her feet that were turning blue, I had to ask, “Where did you get shoes,  you said you are barefoot?” “Oh, Allison, I ran to the consignment store and then to my daughter’s favorite boutique across the parking lot.” I kept smiling thinking how resourceful she was to go to a store instead of driving all the way home. She kept talking, “The consignment store had nothing my size and the boutique didn’t either.” I was a little confused. After all, she did have shoes on.  “Where did you get your shoes?” She looked at me like a cat with a mouse in its mouth, “I got a size too small at the boutique, my feet are squished into them.”

Isn’t this just the way we do things sometimes in our lives? We rush around in a panic looking to find something that will fit and when we don’t find it, we settle by forcing it.

When is the last time you forced something and not let it take its natural course? Did it hurt you or anyone else?

Abide In Me

Seek me first with all your heart, soul, mind and strength. Through this seeking, all else will be added to you.  Abide in Me and I will abide in you (then you will understand the beauty of how our God mends the pieces of our shattered hearts to wholeness), no branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in Me. John 15:4

Learning to abide is a process. Each day we that we rest in Him, we live and love well.

Picture yourself as a bird flying high, flying high above all the chaos and those who reach to pull you down to their immature way of thinking and rebellion. Trust in the Spirit of the Father who abides in you. Awaken your heart to Him, giving each new day to Him to hold you up, above the conflict. Trust there is a greater plan and He knows best. When conflicted, pray about everything while giving thanks to the Lord Jesus for your conflict. It has led you closer to Him.

It is in this closeness with Him, this daily moment to moment giving of your heart to Him, that the Potter reshapes the heart, the soul, the mind and you come into the new mind, into alignment with the likeness of Christ Jesus (the anointed One). Above the chaos, flying on the heights, you receive empowerment through the light of the world to come down into the chaos of others, maintaining balance of peace and God’s presence with you to shine the light out to others which is flows from deep within your soul.

Our Creator has promised a life of abundance in the glorious riches of Jesus Christ when we seek Him first, above all things. It might not look like what you expect, but stay the course, trust Him alone in everything, sit alone with Him until you are alone with Him in a crowd of thousands. God will honor your devotion, your heart and He will make Himself and the Way known. Believe Him, this is what He asks of you.

You are the future of what comes next. In every breath you take, you breathe in life or death. In every thought, word and action life or death is chosen. Breathe life so you may give life! Trust your Heavenly Father, the only One able to shine light in and through you.

Pressing On

I keep pressing on to reach the goal. Just like when building a house, writing this book has required a complete stripping of the land, removal of any unstable ground and grading before pouring the footings and level foundation. It’s a laborious work. It requires revisiting events and emotions I didn’t care to experience again. But the process has been good. My life has improved and the writing has become more precious and alive. Sometimes I ask myself, “Why have you spent all these years on this one project,” and I hear a whisper, “Publish His glorious deeds, tell everyone what He has done.” I look back at changes in me and the life reborn. Coming from desperation and looking for love without Him to being loved into having a purpose with Him is all it takes to keep me pressing on. Our amazing Creator gave His Son to die for me. It took nearly four decades of deep and paralyzing pain, major stumbling and falling down, so far I thought I might not ever get up. In the midst of it all something happened. Our Creator got my attention. I don’t believe my rebellion could have ended without divine intervention. When I look at life today, I’m thankful. Thankful that all I went through drove me so far away that I had no where else to turn but to the loving compassion of our merciful Savior and Lord. I’m confident He knew I could bear no more. A life of peace, joy and love from the beginning might have changed everything. With all my flaws, He showed me His love.

He rescued me. I didn’t deserve it and wasn’t  looking for it. How could I look for something I didn’t know? He redeemed me through His greatest gift! Sharing the wonderful things He has done through this book is an honor. It’s not a real pretty package neatly tied with a ribbon. It’s painful, but  light came. I want to tell you all about that light and love. That’s why I went back  . . . so you won’t have to. I let Him rebuild my house, forming me and shaping me in His way and for His purpose, in a way beyond anything I might imagine.

I did much of the painful work to guide you there too! Maybe it will save you some time and you will opt out of further shattered dreams and broken heartedness.

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It has been a long road. It all started more than forty-five years ago. Today, the last few strokes are down and the weight is lifting. Finally, the story of my life, the grave places I visited, the lost and blind life I led is down on paper. But who cares about all that? The good part is what happened in the middle of all that.  In the middle of the darkness and on the road that led to hell. . . there was revelation of truth and love! There was a rescue and in this rescue came forgiveness, peace and grace. Now, lived out on the other side after five years, I share the story. The truth about why (more…)

Don’t Worry, Be Happy!

worried-woman-smIt is something we all struggle with at some season of our life. Especially as women, moms and daughters. We hear people say, “Don’t Worry, let it go” many times throughout the day. How is it they can say this? Do they really mean it? I wonder if they have been able to get rid of that tight knot in their stomach. You know what I’m talking about. It makes you want to lay down and sleep forever or run and hide till it goes away. It’s a knot that feels like it will never go away. I’m willing to guess that if you don’t have it now, there has been a point in your life when you have. Probably more than once.

If you used to have it and don’t any longer, what is it that made it go away? I am one of those people who used to have multiple knots and worry as soon as I (more…)

Plans For Your Life

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When a home is designed, the architect has to be exact in his measurements and scale when creating the plans. A home is good at being a safe haven, a place of shelter and to share family love. It serves its purpose by doing what it is good at doing. In a similar fashion, we are formed and shaped perfectly for the purpose we are designed to serve.

I love how our heavenly Father’s Word steers us to do what we are good at doing. How many times have we tried to be like, look like or dress like someone else? I’ve done it, you’ve done it. It never works does it? It might for a little while, but eventually it will begin to drag us down.

When we try to be someone else by doing what they do, we short change ourselves and those around us. When we let go to allow our lives and work (more…)